Remember to breathe

Remember to breathe, tell your mind tell it now don’t panic remember to breathe you need to breathe.

But why would you need to remember to breathe when breathing is a reflexive action?

Well I will tell you why;

Remember to breathe when that ex boyfriend of yours comes in your hostel room under the guise of friendship, when he tries to kiss you and you tell him no. Remember to breathe when he pins you against the wall and digs his fingers in the flesh of your back, you tell him he is hurting you and he should stop, you call him by his name in hopes to reach his human side but he doesn’t relent. He tells you to stop moving and submit to him, he tells you you once did this willing and what’s so hard now, you tell him you don’t love him anymore not after he cheated and you’re not attracted to him anymore.

You have not given him consent and he should stop now but instead he throws you on the bed and keeps you down with the weight of his body, you widen your eyes in horror as he starts to unbuckle his belt. Your back hurts, your voice only a croak, you realize you’ve been holding your breathe, you manage to tell him you will scream if he comes any closer and you will go to the police. Somehow he stops and tells you you’re overreacting he just really loves you and wanted to show you how much.

He leaves and you lock the door and sit on the floor crying, you see your back in the mirror and his fingers have left bruises. Your wrist has circular marks where he held you.

Remember to breathe.

Remember to breathe when you’re visiting a friend who asked you over with intent to discuss something that he needed your help with suddenly looks at you like you’re a piece of cake and he hasn’t eaten in a while.

When he puts his hand on your breast and you try to wrap your head around what is happening. When you tell him this is inappropriate and get up to leave but he holds you in your waist and presses his body on yours, when you try to scream and he covers your mouth and tells you will enjoy it if you don’t struggle. Remember to breath when you grab the knife and put it to his neck with a promise to push it into his neck if he doesn’t let you go.

Remember to breathe when he tells you you’re a psychotic trying to protect yourself. Remember to breathe when. you finally get away and your whole body is shaking and you don’t care who is watching and you breakdown and cry.

Remember to breathe when you start to blame yourself about what just happened because how could you have known he was a sex predator?

Remember to breathe

Remember to breathe when your boss at your first job cups your ass as you pass, remember to breathe when you tell him that is harassment. Remember to breathe when he fires you.

Remember to breathe, don’t stop breathing just breathe.