I’ve given out my heart whole, I’ve given it out in parts and I’ve given it in pieces.
I was a child playing at being an adult
I thought I had tasted the bitterness of betrayal and survived with my taste intact
That it didn’t ruin me but it’s teeth had sunk deep
I thought that if I wished for it enough, I would attain it
But the depth of love I gave was never fully matched
Not entirely, not like I’d have wanted
You see I was like the ocean; strong, deep, powerful and layered. I’d drowned everything I received and yet it was never enough, somehow.
I always wanted more, like a whirlwind I sucked everything in and carried on
It wasn’t that no one could love me like I wanted, it was that somehow deep in my heart I knew the love I sought wasn’t of this world
It was impossible to attain.
So I settled for the bits I could get, sometimes I was happy, even content in the fleeting moments I found myself in love’s embrace
And yet I still craved a love so deep it reaches the earths core and wakes tectonic plates
Fully consuming me and setting my heart forever ablaze
Alas! logic cautions, crave not such destructive emotions least you burn.
And I screamed back, I want to burn!
