Fading away

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Daydreaming of escape

Into the abyss where no thoughts or feelings exist

Dreaming of numbness

Of nothingness

Of non-existence

Dreaming because it’s all I can do

Dream

Staying is hard

Leaving is harder

Letting others in on this emotional state feels like an invasion of the sacredness of this vulnerability that somehow spoils it

To keep it pure, in its rawest form

I bear it alone

Letting it occupy me, feeling it all and not engaging it

Waiting for it to pass

Like it always does

Periodically doing something to keep it at bay

Like writing this piece

Holding on